OMG. i hate him.

you know, sometimes i wonder why must this happen to me.
i wonder why and how could he have __ me.
i wonder why is he soo stupid and brainless.
i wonder why is he acting like a retard and a b****.
i wonder WHY WHY WHY DID HE HAVE TO KEEP PESTERING ME.
AND i wonder why can't he understand what i had told him before.

i feel like strangling him. if only i could, i would KILL him.
what a b****.

to that person;
i don't know why you're acting moree like a bustard.
i don't know why you keep coming near to me.
i don't know why you dream of weird and disgusting dreams.
i don't know why you keep annoying me.
i don't know why you intend to ruin my life.
i simply don't know why you can't just understand and accept that stupid fact.
i don't like you, okayy.
i hate you.

it's a good thing that i didn't mention your name. i am not so evil.
this is just a warning to you.
i want this thing to STOP.
you hear me?


i have to stop this 'thing'. i have to stop this feeling.
but i don't know how. i feel so pathetic. NO, I AMMMM PATHETIC.
i don't why i am so stupid. STUPID because i have slacked and dropped.
my grades are falling and i simply don't know why. i feel very angry and frustrated.
ANGRY TO THIS PERSON AND MYSELF. i am acting like a jerk. STUPID for falling for him when i know that it's worthless. Sometimes, i don't even know what i'm doing and most importantly, WHO exactly AM I. oh look ! here comes Nurul the pathetic one.
and to youuu, i would like to apologise and no offence because CAN YOU GET OUT OF MY HEAD ? it's a sad thing that your name is written and carved in my head and i bloody hell don't know why.

HELP MEE, someone.

Loves,
Nurul
i am having a heartache.
i am torn into pieces.
and i don't even think that all this could be mended.