NURUL. you should be studying now...
and wouldn't you be saying "wat the hell"?
same here.

ok. i hate myself.
i failed my practical exam BADLY and i mean it. Are you shocked? thought so. because people didnt believe it. Im SERIOUS as in soo serious. 4 half over 15? what the hell was that? and i realised i truly deserved to fail my practical because all along, ive been passing my tests with good marks. and just like wat mum said, "you cant just win all the way. someday, you'll lose". yeah and i think this is it. thanks God.

no, i shouldnt be angry towards my result. i should be happy and appreciate it. you may think im crazy, but im not. well maybe thats what you'll do. hate yourself, be alone, hate your result, hate your mom for scolding you like hell... but wat the hell, to me, heck care. though it really bothers me aLOT, i just have to accept it because it is fact. and i cant turn back time. hey, life's got to move on right?

and now, im only left with my science common test and i really got to study hard for it. really hard. it's my only hope to help me pass my science for my practical result is very LOW. so LOW it gives me the feeling of desperate to study hard and ace for an A1 or A2. i need to get an A. i so need it badly.

i got some advices from my tutor and mum too.
i love them to bits. they're really caring and helpful.
they told me that even if you fail, dont take it as you're really a failure but somehow, you're just not. it is not the end of the world but it't just beginning. treat it as a lesson taught and be sure you won't make the same mistake again.
my tutor told me that if you fail any subject other than english, you just need to buck up on it as there's still room for improvement but ENGLISH. oh, you're gonna be placed in NA class. and i dont think i want that to happen to me.

okeh enough NURUL. study!!!!!
and btw, here's my masterpiece. it suck ryte?

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selama ini..

-nurul`my loveheart
im not your fck-ing princess.
im your slave ryte?