WTH.

no! i dont wanna be sick. i wanna be normal as before.
unlike now. ive gotta sore throat, runny nose and and COUGHING.
which of course.. will lead me to not doing the 2.4km run!!
oh shits. i dont wanna be sick. that's the worst part of my life.
becos i cant talk and concentrate to what im doing at that point of time.
i dont wanna be sick.

today really pissed me off.
art was such a bore and i kept coughing here and there.
and by recess time, my bottle was empty. i needed water.
but to save money, i didnt. my condition was getting worse becos
i seriously cant talk. and 1e2 did really pissed me off. except for some.

they're not being cooperative towards me-the one with illness.
they've made me shout like hell until ive got no voice to talk.
and Anita thanks for the drink yet no thanks. its yours. not mine.
i felt like going home as time passed by. i needed water. im hot in the inside
yet cold on the outside. i needed to quenched my throat to avoid coughing and so on and so for.
1e2 please dont make me shout. i cant talk. i seriously cant talk. you know my voice sounded different. you guys were making so much noise that i seriously felt ,"WTH. cant you just spare me some peace? im sick ok. yeah, im sick. and it'll get worse if your noise level keeps reaching beyond my limits. go get yourself a big shit and just keep on thinking abt yourself ONLY. "
and still, i guarantee you'll probably say sorry NOT that i care.
ohh. so people must SPOT your mistake and then you JUST realised what you've done and thats it. u apologised. you were pretending heck care about what you've done but the one you've been hurting can feel the pain growing. and yeah. i cant heal that pain. becos that pain belong to you. like i said, you PAIN in the ass.

ehh please. you really pissed me off.
stop it la ok. and ashraf, you're seriously getting on my nerves.
stop your ANNOYING-ness becos that bothers me. i felt like spitting out words that have been staying in my mouth all this while. stupid asshole. yeah, you're it. CARE to amend it? fck.fck.fck.

go say it. say you're sorry and all. big deal. no probs.
becos i know you dont care abt me.
becos i know im just a big fat ass sitting there.
becos i know im stupid and NOT clever.
becos i know im just pretending im sick.
and becos i know im just a pain in the ass.
yeah. no need to spit out what u think of myself.
becos i knew it all already.

k im just gonna sit at my place and care abt myself.
if im sick. im sick. no need to say am i ok or fine or whatever.
becos i can take care of myself.
hey! im growing up. and i have a sweet13 comin' up next month.
and i know no one will care to give me presents EXCEPT FOR ME.
yeah. i do love giving others presents. becos its my style. MY WAY.
and becos i know MY family will be the only one celebrating my b'day
and becos my b'day is hidden somewhere-holiday
and becos i know you guys will be going overseas and yeah. forget abt me.
yeah. im still pretending NOT that i care.

pissed..pissed..pissed.
-my loveheart
nurul