okeh life sucks to core.

dammit. soon, im gonna undergo the most intolerable moment of my life in just 5 weeks' time.
COMMON TESTS.
2 unforgettable, hatred, DULL words.
shiits. what the hell.

nonetheless, ive got back my report slip. it kind of made me hyper through amazement.
i just realised i ROCK in art, home econs and MATHS.
i just love maths. and i dont know why. algebraic expressions are MY FAVOURITES.
i know people may think it sucks big time becos they'll put you in a "whirling of the equations and formulas" WORLD. i know. but heck care.
and i suck in my first language.

EL = C6
MALAY = A1
MATHS = A1
SCIENCE = A2
GEOGRAPHY = A2
HISTORY = A1
LITERATURE = B4
D&T = VR(meaning im doing home ec. for 1st semester. 2nd semester then D&T)
HOME EC. = A1
VISUAL ARTS = A1

i hadnt realise until this moment that i could really score beyond my average if i just go for it. i realised i really have to put my heart, mind and will to what im focusing. i know it aint easy. and PRAYING is the only way. so that God can help you in troubles and woes. go nurul go....

the past few days had been really suffocating. like being tortured in some hell prison.
and fck to edison for causing it.
the "show off" boy. i feel like strangling him to half death.
im just so fcking being annoyed and irritated by him.
he already gave 1e2 5 points becos of his tucked out shirt.
and 5 points is enough. but no. it doesnt quite simply end there with a full stop.
the sentence kept continuing.
he add again 5 more points to the entire class and im so fcking frustrated ryte now.
hadnt he had enough? oh no. i bet not. dare he say he wants to sabotage us?
*screams* i think its already more that 10 points. mind you, 10 rotten points. what if my whole entire class have to go for detention? we really have to put all the blame on him. yes, he had done so much mistakes and doesnt even bother to amend them. so what for is he here to live? to make others life more miserable than ever? fcking no WAY.

edison. u know wat? i give up.
if you ever say anything, even just a WORD, i will just jolly well SHUT myself all up.
becos heck care.
and you can SHUT the hell out of my life and off you go, fck to your own godamn world.
hell yeah! you're no heavenly. you're just some kind of a dork.
fck off you big bastard.

-my loveheart
nurul

i kept thinking of you in my sleep.