im starting to hate my people.
and i dont know why.

yes finally, i updated my blog. it's been dormant for quite a long time since.
i dont bother to blog anymore. because i dont have time.

i got maths test today. was quite easy. in fact, the easiest maths test i've ever had this year. and i still wonder why they kept asking what is gradient. im not being some smart alex here but it just bother-ED me in such so i am quite surprised you asked that question to a teacher.

and yesterday i had my literature dramatization. it was the WORST nightmare ive experienced and i hope it'll be the first and last time i'd get it. my group was the first one to perform okay. and i was so pissed to the teacher for making us performing us when we only got less than 24 hours to rehearse and do stuffs about it.
we had to perform at the FLC and i changed my clothes with wei shan. and omg was i so NERVOUS to go out of the toilet? i just feel so embarassed okay wearing a plain t-shirt and a long skirt or so. because i hate to see people staring at me. especially during our acting.
the FLC was so tense and i swear everyone was like looking at us, ALL DAMN QUIET. i was trembling, i mean, everyone noticed that didnt they? i was sweating on the inside but cold on the outside. oh freak~

today, im just glad i received my geog class test. its been more than a week ive been waiting for it. and im the happiest girl in this world for only today i guess. i got highest. SHOCKED? yeah, i am.

and my history common test;
and again, i received marks ive been aiming for.
i flunked a bit but not bad i think. im starting to improve my source-based questions which are naturally and originally my worst nemesis question in exams. yeah i dont like it. it gives me goosebumbs~

and yes, i am starting to hate my people.
my classmates. my friends. and 1e2.

oh, why bother asking me this STUPID question when actually you're the one who scored the highest? why bother asking for my marks? why bother asking me if i'd studied or not? yeah, WHY BOTHER, YOU FREAKS?

eh, dont underestimate me. im not the CLEVEREST girl you've ever met. and i swear i am NOT. i may be top in class or so but it still doesnt explains why im the cleverest. i hate it okay. i hate it when you ask me for my marks. i hate it when you just steal my paper knowing ho wmuch i'd got overall, and I HATE IT when you think you're big than me.and finally, I HATE YOU.

dont hurt me. because i dont want to.
ive been patient for not bursting out my anger to you.
but now, i guessed i must have blown it all out.

i can't stand the pain in me. the pain you're adding each day without knowing.
......

CAN YOU LIKE STOP ASKING ME THIS STUPID QUESTION?
CAN YOU LIKE STOP ASKING, "FATIN! HOW MUCH YOU GET?"

because i cant stand it no more. my patience has reaches it's limit.
some day, i may die of this. i may. or i may die of you, you irritating, annoyingly bastards~
yes, i consider you as bitches and bastards. you know a bitch and a bastard really makes a good couple. but DONT EVER thought of inviting me to your FCKING wedding.
i dont care if you're a girl or a boy. gender doesnt matter.

what bothers me is you asking me stupid questions,
and i get it every single day. im tired of it.

can you like STOP IT?
-pissed..pissed..pissed..


btw, acha gave me a WHITE, MICKEY WATCH.
i so love it. THANKYOU DEAR BEST FRIEND.<33333