iim so pissed...

pissed abt my classmate.
pissed abt my studies.
and evrything in my life!

im so not satisfied with my maths quiz although it doesnt include in my exam. but really. im so pissed to myself. even though i show it to sumone else, and he or she said "good what!ok what!".... i got 16/20. i made such a small silly mistake and bcos of that, it minus off my precious points. and i can actually score full marks. bloody hell!

and ahmad"kucing" kept teasing me by playing with my name! dang lahh yous!

and my science and maths formulas, kept me in a world of CONFUSION. iim so confused! and i dont know how to apply the formula(s) or whatsoever stuffs lahhs.. gndengs arhss.

okiie abt the continuous for the camp shall be cancelled. cus i know ive not much time to blog abt it. and so what if you go, "eh wat seyy!! org nk tau psl camp dier abey tk nk blang!". iim not to be blame. its my camp! my property to cancel it off you shit! and i'll go blah blah blahhs..

oh whatever.

teachers giving me more homeworks. MORE STRESS. MORE PRESSURE.
eh 'cher! u want me to die arhs?? u want me to get HIGH-BLOOD PRESSURE???
assholes.

and i dont have enough time to study and revise. oh bloody shiit! and also got cca whatsoevers stuffs results abt which cca im selected. and then later go home late. and then got tuition!!! dengs lahhs!

oh and i forgot! TOMORO GOT RELIGIOUS CLASS!!!
im feeling the stress like how my sister's been suffering all time.

can i be a p6 failure...one who always retains???? i wanna be in primary school.....! i dont wanna to be stressed out and start thinking abt jumping down and whatsoevers stuffs!!

and i know i cant turn back my time. i cant rewind my life like a movie or drama with episodes and episodes... have i not get it? NURUL..u're living in reality LOSER!

yeahh ppl! i know im a loser. keep calling me that and i love you.

okkie snapp out of it NURUL.*snapped*
k im back to reality. as i was saying i cant rewind my life....
and i know my life has to move on no matter what challenges, what competitions, what stress, what pressure, what tests, what examinations keep passing by.....
bcos i still know, a life like a teenager is the 1st level of being a young adult. and a life like mine is full of CONFUSIONS and STRESS and HATRED. but i STILL believe in what i told myself, "when you feel its the end of the world, actually its just the beginning. being a teenager has an easier priority than being an adult. for example, my mom and dad. ones i treasure a lot and love a lot whole-heartedly. they're the ones who've been supporting my family, my school fees and evrything..and when i say evrything. it means EVRYTHING. "

i have to have to try to start believing in myself. cos i kept depending on sumone else. and that's one of the reasons why i called myself a loser. k 1..2..3
SAY HI LOSER! and i'll say hi urself. ppl, i love you.

no. i cant be a failure. i cant be an un-believer. i have to try and let it go. i have to dare soar up to the sky. i have to free my wings. and let it be in the air.
like a bird locked in a cage and has been trying to free itself out to soar up again.

i have to free myself and let it go. i have to compose myself.

ouhh. im so pissed. bye.
and evryone, 1..2..3.. say BYE LOSER to me and i'll say OUH SHUT UP. but i still love you.

IM SO PISSED. IM A LOSER.hey loser!