wad de hell.

truth is, "why am i an unlovable friend?"

i just dont understand. no one loves me in a way that they treat me being the one "left out". EXCEPT for my family, cousins of course. they'll like give you the cold shoulder when actually you did nothing wrong and they blamed you. stupid.

for example, on the "interhouse games" day,
when my team[patience] verses with kindess ryte, "they" cheer for kindess. oh! and i KNOW WHY. because ai`sya's in kindess and "they" love and care for her as a friend. and just because afini's in my team you all like dont wanna cheer for me. what are friends for ? u think friends are just for some stupid dumbo thing like "oh! friends are JUST friends what!". CORRECTION.wrong. u dont hv brains to think deeply. u guys dont realise that ive made sacrifices JUST FOR YOU. remember the time u asked if i could join u guys making the accessoried thing, i didnt go. and u know why? because i hated to see u guys treating me as an inentity. i hated to feel being left out and feel that u act as if u dont frend me. and i know uve hated me since like we were in p4 and thats in 2004. WOW. 2 years eh? wonderful.MARVELLOUS. and also i was prepared to get scolded from my mom because she says it's a waste of time doing it. i may feel that if ure reading this u'll go, "yeah! thats right! we hate you. oh! u think it's a waste of time? whatever. go shut your mouth!" am i right? thought so too.

and wat up with afini? like WHO CARES IF SHES A B****??? AT LEAST SHES ABLE TO PLAY IN MY TEAM AND I THOUGHT SHES QUITE OK. i know u hated her but for what reasons? i know. for this AGAIN dumbo reason, "shes like a 'minah' seyy!". and that dumbo reason does NOT related to the interhouse games. you may think she's like that but it's just the way it seeme to be. shes been like that for like.. since she joined bwps. i think she has improved in her skills on playing captains ball. though she may be tall, but for some instance, she DOES play her part in my team. now im telling u the truth. i aint no lie. although she[afini] says that im "action" in playing the game, i just told myself, "okie. whatever. shes just a friend. i can treat her like an animal. shes also a humanbeing." and thats true!

she cant be treated like an animal right? what if someone treats u like an animal from nowhere?? obviously u wont like it. thats my point! just forgive her for once a year since theres the Ramadhan month.

u can hate her FOREVER if you want to but remember, " God hates His fellow humanbeings hating another humanbeing?"

GET IT?