heyy. iim back.

it's been a week of enjoyment except for yesterday..

had to learn for today's paper...

darn it.

mann. i think iim having a headache again!!!

HELP!

dont tell miie iim gonna be sick tomoro!!!.. ive got so many things to do during this PSLE marking days.. ive got Art to do, learn my religious school's exam, s.s. project, and.. and ive got INTER-HOUSE GAMES this friday!!! *screams* wad de bullshit. damn it. i feel like not going to school this friday... i dont want to go thru' the INTER-HOUSE GAMES thinggy.. i know and i guarantee my house WONT get any trophies.. my team's just like SHIT. all dont wanna play. all dont know how to play. all dont wanna cheer.. now that's not being co-operative and considerate oukaye! i shudnt have been in patience in the first place. i shud have been in loyalty only for less than 12 months UNTIL my p1 form teacher transferred me to patience. WTF.

azliyana and muthiah dont wanna play.. AND dont wanna cheer. how to get points!!!! YOU tell me HOW!!! luckily this yr's my last yr in bwps then im gonna go to somewhere else and have fun there with my NEW frends. isnt that COOL to you??? you dont know how to care for others' feelings.. who the hell the person are YOU to hurt others' feelings??? YOU have no right to do that... and i HATE to play captains ball, verses my frends' team... and and then later WILL have this anger just bcause of this DARN STUPID HELL game.. and later not frends again.. i'll always be the one they'll ignore... and i DONT KNOW WHY.. why ah aqilah? why ah aisya? i know u know the reason and that u wont tell me.. just WHY. i thot u guys[i mean girls] are my best pals! i think im gonna feel that im not ur frends anymore when verses with integrity... i just feel angry when verses integrity... and I'LL TELL YOU WHY. ONE of you will purposely tap the ball when im holding it and pretend that nothing just happen!!! and im sure u know who that girl is. im OK with loyalty and kindness except that if loyalty WILL make me feel like dat...

and THIS will make you guys understand why...

you've been all wrong
not who you think i am
and you've never given me a chance.

you dont know how it feels to be outside the crowd
you dont know what it's like to be left out
you dont know how it feels to be your own best friend
on the outside looking in...

ok now i feel like crying...

you guys always FORGET me... like the baking cookie thinggy...
u didnt tell me about it aqilah...
why why why

WHY.