it feels soo good..

well u noe sheehan...

im at fault too

ii noe ure mad at me cus ii let out one of u secrets as in...

.."u likeD me"..

its very hard to say this to u ..

but im really SORRY.

there. ive said it.

the past is history.

ii hope it NEVER happen again in the future.

heyy bloggiie! u noe' wat!

it feels so good when ure single as in ure not someone's.

u can express ur feelings like the previous tymes when ure being urself.

ive made a STRICT promise to not fall in love anymore.

iHATE it.

darn hate it being attached.

darn love it being sinGLe.

its lyke so fun fun fun.<333333

u'll feel as normal as before.

in such so that ure more errr.. wats the word..

u'll be more loved than the others.

its lyke when u hv a bf, u'll do anything JUST for hym.

u'll more concentrate on hym.

imagining hym loving u. like DAYDREAMING.

its more to OBSESSING.

ure totally obsessed to hym

then u'll like ignore ur frends.BEST frends.even maybe ur family members.

all ur studies will slack and u'll see more RED GRADE Fs.or F9s.

so girls out dere beware of boys out dere.

next point is...

about ur frends.

sumtymes u tink u can trust them but sooner or later'

u'll realised they're not true frends.

look.

my point is frends come and go.

they depend on ur highs and ur lows..

when u need 'em the most..

they decided to not to be there.

ive experienced it before..

though ive gort to say its MORE fun.

solitude. is miine.

evryone ignores u.

ALL of 'em.

cus someone has spread rumours abt u.

dont believe them.

its nort worth crying.

it doesnt change anything.

when im experiencing it, when ii try to make a perfect smile to 'em, they just show u the "trying-to-be-nice-to-us?" look.

ii feel like shouting...

"hey!! i smile because of sincerity! dun get misconception ok!im trying to find the courage to say sorry and there u are being so selfish??u didnt give me the chance to say sorry.. get out of my life. ure hurting me. so leave me alone.dun get me distracted.*screams*tears*.."

they're so not ur true frends. but after a yr, u'll feel like u want to forgive and forget and apologise. u just wanted to be what its like in the previous tymes when bestfrends do the same thing together. share own dirty lil' secrets...

ii really wanted to say that to "them". but since ii get this feeling like God is giving me a test related to what ive just said. ii just have to accept them.no matter what it takes.

ii hv to face the challenge.

face the reality in the future.

well.

thats it for today.

i'll end here. *wink*